Saturday was the longest day of my life. I worked an eight hour shift wearing heels, WORST MISTAKE. i made only one sale, and was scolded by my manager. When i got down to the muni station, i found out that they were doing construction on the N and that I had to transfer to a shuttle on church. I was PISSED. all i wanted to do was get home, take my shoes off , and let my feet soak in a burning hot bath. little did i know that my long day would get longer but for the better. As im sitting in the front of the bus waiting for the bus to go, a lady gets on and starts to ask the driver where exactly this bus will taker her, and if it would take her to Duboce by Noe park (the dog park). At first I was frustrated and asking myself what the fuck was going on. I looked up and saw that she was an older blind women, who had no idea how to get home because of the train change. others around me were trying to help her figure out where she lived and how she could get home taking the bus, instead of attempting to take a new bus route. As i sat there, the surrounding passengers and I made eye contact. We all knew that we had to help her but how. I looked up at a couple that were standing in front of me, and to the girl (well more to myself) i said “fuck, someones going to have to take her home.” She looked at me and nodded her head in agreement. without thinking twice i stood up, and said “ma’m, Ill take you home. where do you live?” I have no idea what over came me to reach out to her when all i was concerned was with the condition of my feet. The surrounding bus riders looked at me with looks of bewilderment. she turned to the direction of my voice. and said “really?” i asked her what street she lived on. Having ridden the N almost everyday of for the last year i had a good understanding of where she lived. One of the men who was attempting to help her ask me if i knew where it was . I said ” Not exactly, but the two of us together can figure it out.” when we reached castro and duboce, the bus driver let us know that it was our stop. We both stood up, I grabbed her arm and helped her off the bus, while everyone watched. The bus driver shouts to me “are you coming back?” my response ” no, i dont expect you to wait for me to walk her home and come back” and with that he shut the doors of the bus and drove off. It was me and her left on the street to find our way to her home. i gently grabbed her hand and placed it on my arm. We walked down the street exchanging small talk. Forgetting that she was completely blind, I commented on how lovely her neighborhood was and she said back to me “oh thats what everyone tells me”. I had never felt secure with commenting on a disability that someone had. I walked her two blocks down, around the corner, and to her door. After i made sure she was at the door with her key out, she turned to face me, held both my hands with both of hers, and even though she couldn’t see my face, i knew she was looking into my soul. She told me that the  god of the universe would repay me with good karma. after repeating that a few times she offered to pay me, and i happily declined. How could i take money from someone who i helped?? my eyes began to tear, and i couldnt hold back my emotions anymore. i quickly walked around the corner, and started to hysterically cry. I dont know why i did, but i just began to sob. I couldn’t stop thinking about this women who had put all of her trust into someone who offered to walk her home. I have never had someone put their life in my hands in that way. I know that this may seem cheesy, but it was honestly life changing. there i was on the bus complaining about my feet hurting from a pair of shoes when this women couldn’t find her way home because of a disability she had. She is now an inspiration to life. the rest of the evening i couldnt help but think of her and her soft gently voice. I could never thank her enough for helping me as a person. I hope to someday run into her again, and say hello. 

if you ever have the opportunity to help someone like that, please do. not for them but for yourself. yes it may seem selfish, but you really need to reach out to others to fully appreciate who you are as a whole.